a solid B

I am a solid B. I hate it.

I am doing a perfectly acceptable job at my job... both of them. 

I am trying not to be sickened by the various insanities - I'm not going to be paid to spend hours & hours at a meeting about benefits we all know I will never have - must keep going.

I'm trying so hard to be interesting, to bring some excitement about learning.

I believe, so much, in http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dayenu. I want to be a seed.